1/30/2026 | so many https://www.thefrugalgamer.net/pixels.php

1/30/2026 | todo https://keysklubhouse.com/index2

1/30/2026 | todo https://pixelrevival.xyz/pillpals/

1/30/2026 | the internet is like go and im trying to flip all the bits to represent MY data

1/30/2026 | i respect when artists want to always be credited back but personally love when a png or a jpg goes on a long off leash walk

1/29/2026 | everyone say hi apricot

1/29/2026 | this is so fun this is so fun

1/29/2026 | image-rendering: pixelated i love uuu

1/27/2026 | the sunny death stare is so lethal we've glanced him in the mirror before and started crying. one time a woman twice our size with a big dog also twice our size stepped off the street with a horrified look and waited for him to pass. WHICH WAS A BIT AWKWARD as we were still over a block away. he wasnt even in a bad mood it was just a hot day and we were in leather and we wanted to get Home

1/27/2026 | parents would never acknowledge we're multiple but trust they would also never get within 12 feet of sunny and when he fronted theyd be like damn.....its back

1/27/2026 | beacon got sweeter and sweeter #fawner twas never "enough" alas but sunny fronts would get "stop looking at me like that it scares me" as he would sit motionless. unblinking. #guess #walk up here and find out

1/27/2026 | they knew that last part she used to say "youre going to menendez us when youre older" all the time. she'd say that in front of other people and theyd look at her like she was crazy (we were a gigglepuff toddler, no tantrums no tears no complaints etc. "perfect baby" but i do remember being terrified every moment of every day so thats part of why)

1/27/2026 | and if u Do run from the hospital idk how to tell u this gently. the baby will not be happy

1/27/2026 | IF YOU ACCIDENTALLY SHAKE YOUR BABY DIRECTLY OUTSIDE OF THE AUTOMATIC DOORS TO THE HOSPITAL AND IT CAUSES THE DOOR TO OPEN, DO NOT RUN FROM THE HOSPITAL

1/27/2026 | IF IT WAS AN ACCIDENT, TAKE YOUR SHAKEN BABY TO THE HOSPITAL. NOT TAKING YOUR SHAKEN BABY TO THE HOSPITAL TO AVOID "HAVING TO EXPLAIN THINGS TO SOCIAL WORKERS" MAKES YOU THE DEVIL

1/27/2026 | DONT SHAKE YOUR BABIES

1/27/2026 | what makes me most sad is when i feel soft touch its very very painful (clothes, other people) and when i eat its hard and scary but i cannot worry much about how this disability affects me and have to continuously perform regret and shame for employers/community cause im a freaking draaaaag while spending literally all of my energy trying (and failing) to meet their expectations. i know i have done a lot of things for myself in life but rn im deep enough in the danger zone where "everything flashes before your eyes" and it just makes me so so incredibly sad

1/27/2026 | im crashing out online because this year is all about being able to just say what has happened. i have spent decades apologizing because ITS ME NOW. im the person who cannot do anything and is disabled, my parents are fine and they were able to work their careers with no impediments. but me, my body and what happened is literally such a huge consideration to everything i do and everything my friends do with me

1/27/2026 | the baby only knows because you tell it this story a million times with the moral of the story being "thats why we cant trust your father" because it was his responsibility to clip the sling. (it was actually *everyone's* responsibility to get the baby medical care for an injury)

1/27/2026 | i need everyone to imagine wringing out a 7 day old baby and your first thought is what happens to Me now (nothing, its my baby so i get to run)

1/27/2026 | my entire shoulders, sternum, rib cage, and skull is involved and in motion, feels like a locked seatbelt i cant get off. cramping and spasms in my tongue, massive massive pressure top of head. key location of disarray is the top of my mouth which is completely inflamed . frightening suction like feelings all over in my head. and when it DOES slip im totally out of control and its like. squeaking/sneakers on gym floor

1/27/2026 | i think i want an iv so i have energy and can do this without needing to eat. which really is feeling wrong and bad rn so im crashing

1/27/2026 | i kinda want to say neck brace but im worried if i cant move my head freely then its gonna be harder to breathe

1/27/2026 | really cant stop shaking and keeping stuff down is hard. seizure buzz is moving into a much more..central location of the brain. worried ill end up at the hospital next 48 hours or so but also idk what they can do for me in this situation

1/27/2026 | god doesnt actually set you on fire he just blocks you from stackoverflowing, severing your access to grace

1/27/2026 | six hours into the chase and I line up the sights on the rabbit’s head, at a point just behind the eye…hold steady…ping! The rabbit is clipped through the head. and i have successfully recovered 10% of my caloric burn. I say aloud “Thank you, Grandfather Rabbit”–Grandfather Rabbit is a kind of demigod I’ve invented who is the tutelary spirit of all the snowshoe rabbits.

1/27/2026 | if you guys need me ill be out hunting rabbits in the fresh snow with my single-shot 22

1/27/2026 | ok found what i was looking for. this is insanity this is insanity this is the funniest thing i have ever read ok quote: Because of the fresh snow it should be a good day for rabbit hunting. So I take my old, beat-up, single-shot 22 down from the hooks on the wall. I put my little wooden cartridge-box, containing 16 cartridges, in my pocket, with a couple of books of matches wrapped in plastic bags and a sheath knife on my belt in case I have to build a fire in an emergency. Then I put on my snowshoes and take off. First there’s a hard climb to get up on top of the ridge, and then a level walk of a mile or so to get to the open forest of lodgepole pines where I want to hunt. A little way into the pines I find the tracks of a snowshoe hare. I follow the trail around and around through its tangled meanderings for about an hour.

1/27/2026 | need to perform Reflections on Purposeful Work as a tight five

1/27/2026 | btw turbulence very good podcast

1/27/2026 | jack is redesigning the website in photoshop and i am "redesigning" my signature onto this execution notice

1/27/2026 | we are up and at 'em and arguing and its reminding us of other times we've all been up and at 'em and arguing which is almost always either vacation (its everyones vacation) or a life/death situation (its everyones life/death situation) and unemployed hanging out all day every day with a DEMON trying to snap my neck kind of hitting the bill

1/27/2026 | bad pain panic attack kinda day

1/26/2026 | he copied me :/ but gave me the strongest powers thanks i guess . she WILL annihilate you

1/26/2026 | its not even a kin instead we're like how did togashi know

1/26/2026 | nanika is like. whats beacon doing over there

1/26/2026 | the episode where they're going to see alluka and the doors are opening , we watched in THE PIT behind four sliding doors and we were like find me the author and bring him to me alive and then she was transgender multiple ? then she was transgender multiple ???

1/26/2026 | the timeline where i didnt watch that scene i cant even stomach the thought of that world. the right idea age 17 is actually worth every billion dollars in the world

1/26/2026 | as he was explaining beacon you need to go away forever and never front again we were loving the scene FINALLY someone laying the harsh truth out plain and simple and then immediately saoirse says what the fuck is wrong with you and he apologizes. damn

1/26/2026 | killua sobbing clean triple backflip all forgiven

1/26/2026 | "can u forgive me for being a bad big brother" she shouldve added conditions. if you do a triple backflip

1/26/2026 | it feels like a really aggressive teeth clean behind my eyes... very grindy

1/26/2026 | sorry for lying . it does not feel epic

1/26/2026 | sphenoid bone finally moving. feels epic

1/26/2026 | this minecraft build has me on the ropes

1/26/2026 | polyfrags be like i need to do something bring me my clay

1/26/2026 | trying to do a roll call . we've never done this before i think we could hit one thousand

1/26/2026 | u can stab beacon and turn her into a mush and u will still feel her watching u

1/26/2026 | beacon could be running from someone with a knife and she would still come across a labyrinth on the ground and respect it. beacon bowing at every torii gate in the walking path as the killer the enemy closes in. but look whos still standing

1/26/2026 | u kno something has the power to kill when saoirse is up admiring its beauty. behind her back making hand motion for all of this, out of here

1/26/2026 | the seizure buzz thing has slowed down and is now swimming around our body like a sturgeon

1/25/2026 | my favourite stage of pain delirium is i keep setting myself up with fun activities to do but then 20 seconds into an agonizing torrential assault of television frames ill pause to recover for upwards of an hour and eventually fall asleep and thats my day. idk maybe rolling a pumpkin into the enclosure and seeing my reaction is how i gauge sickness

1/25/2026 | something so delicate going on that every heartbeat its shifting my eye and giving me a flashing migraine. who is designing these levels

1/25/2026 | if i have an aneurysm today its because i was laughing too hard at the sound of the Blorbs. which feel like getting punched in the ear

1/25/2026 | head making Blorb sounds

1/24/2026 | the worrrst part of abusive parents is they are incredibly funny but its a literal you laugh you fucking die challenge

1/24/2026 | no feeling like realizing the parent who has never taught you anything during homeschool because you "arent at her level yet and it would waste her time" who just passes you the textbooks doesnt know what a ..repeating number.. is.. and *cannot* learn

1/24/2026 | funniest funniest ##1 funniest reason ive ever been told "no dinner, go to your room." is for saying its a repeating number after half an hour of her getting angry at me and the calculator that 1/3 just wouldnt end

1/24/2026 | same person who was "teaching" me math divided 1 by 3 during that "argument" and said why wont the number end (for my part, and ill own my part of this, i was practicing the score as written and when she stormed into the room to help with furious non-rhythmic clapping i kept playing the score as written)

1/24/2026 | someone once set up two metronomes to try and prove my 2 v 3 was off. like from carol of the bells

1/24/2026 | practicing 4 against 5 and my 7 against 8s and eager to find a local punk cover band to ruin

1/24/2026 | do love a physical disability where the only instrument you can still play without impairment is a drum set

1/24/2026 | want to record some stuff and produce tracks .. im familiar with a few daws but none are set up on this (getting ancient) rig . there are some finger drummers i could borrow but my stupid fucking fingers dislocate. can u use drumsticks i wonder

1/24/2026 | recovering hearing and lung capacity at the same time i am kind of scaring myself

1/24/2026 | yooo im kind of sounding louder

1/23/2026 | well im losing half the house and my wife keeps saying told you so but at least we can still live out our days pretty comfortable and die in modest obscurity. its not like a billion people know i spoke rudely to my associates

1/23/2026 | sending u bad copper. surely this is without consequence, aside of course that i am now more monied

1/23/2026 | why would ea-nasir sell bad copper? did he think he could get away with it?

1/23/2026 | whatever process going on rn completely cuts off our airway as its unwinding so we are holding breath for about up to a minute at a time . (worst case we can grab our head and twist open) low oxy headache and splotchy inflammation everywhere, bruising from inside out etc. so tired

1/23/2026 | im so so so hungry but my head explodey and swallowing i feel like a seahorse trying to breathe air. not going well

1/23/2026 | nasty. lego head click On

1/23/2026 | it gives insane asylum

1/23/2026 | i will annihilate you. i will annihilate you. i will annihilate you.

1/23/2026 | these are the messages you find in the claw of a skeleton which is completely out of order and needs to be puzzled together or the game is soft locked

1/23/2026 | craziest day ever feel like im grinding my skull around trying to find the right place

1/22/2026 | sucked up right arm to ear and big slug moved from back of head right to back of head left..

1/22/2026 | big collarbone release and its like my head is on my shoulders......absolutely insane follow through

1/22/2026 | horrible feeling of suction in chest throat and nose but the good news is. head is significantly more on. an aside: i need a green ribbon choker its kind of so serious. actually i think i need like 7

1/22/2026 | after 5000 years of furious infinitesimal movement, i built up enough muscle mass to spontaneously break any bone in my body, and then i could move again. and i gave this power to the ringing in my ear like twas the angel pon my shoulder or doth yonder rat my cap. the pain meds didnt work at all last night literally zero sleep and evil symptoms

1/22/2026 | learned *yesterday* that tinnitus is an actual physical sound in the ear and gotta say this is a freaking revolution

1/22/2026 | feel like im lego star wars assembling my head today but i keep slipping off the button and having to restart

1/22/2026 | once stood t pose full sun ontario summer brave and confident expecting to dry off then learned this planet is at times inconceivably cruel and hostile. yeah sure haha everyone point and laugh at the sopping dripping wet sweat guy with shoes moistly squeaking. anyways i dont want to leave the marshmallow

1/22/2026 | every time i consider a big move i remember kami-san wouldnt be there and i would have to slurp down double digit humidity percentages

1/22/2026 | asking whats out there beneath that strange and ceaseless energy and the dead serious answer is an agreed upon center of the universe

1/22/2026 | making time in my busy schedule of observing kami-san giant air pocket (dreamy sigh) to post here about it for you all. gazing upon and admiring giant air pocket may be majority minority activity of my life i do this every day. disabled people are rich at the fog bank. i think whenever i say im staring at the walls what i mean is the render clip at the edge of kami-san giant air pocket where the world ends

1/21/2026 | i have no idea what his problem is. he kept drowning us swimming because he was so so happy to be there he kept open mouth smiling and laughing with literally no regard for the water. fear he's eating sour stripes from the dollar store with a similar energy

1/21/2026 | speaking of keep-alive-ability sunny keeps trying to eat solo which i guess is something he feels confident he can do but *every single time* we choke to the severity im walking outside for help. marshmallows in bed i was like ur joking me.. been telling everyone to nag him if im not there but he says to them "thanks for the reminder" then emits a surreal wave of anger so in practice theyve been getting me and i come look at him like （ΦωΦ）.

1/21/2026 | we're at stage "what are you thinking? let me think that" then she grabs what im thinking. give that back thats my think

1/21/2026 | after 4 years of splitting my thoughts apart so she can eat half of them like mandarin orange slices my little baby fronter can almost keep alive on her own. which i guess isnt even an abnormally long development timeline but sure has felt long

1/21/2026 | the killer .. the enemy

1/21/2026 | total resistance such a banger

1/19/2026 | there definitely exists a squawk and dance which means 'i have your prenatal egg mash lets go back to my place' which makes this all the more frustrating. me and my bestie being humbled by our four shared words "hi" "you rock!" "rock on!" and [spinning around]

1/19/2026 | big problem right now is im one block outside of my crow bestie's hangout zone so ill either need to feed her prenatals at the park or lure her to my house. somehow.

1/18/2026 | spending all day with dogs in kennels crying whining begging at me lowkey making me fucking sad all the time

1/18/2026 | second night of no sleep and clothes hurt to wear from itchy spine. vomer, maxilla, and ethmoid shifting im sniffles like crazy but i cant sniffle or it feels like sledgehammer head attack guy. just oozing. terrible darkness on the left side of our vision moved up (frightening flock of birds which darkened the middle vision and focusable areas) and then sank down into our nose and we swallowed it. i think this will be great in two weeks but right now its happening to me not happened to us

1/17/2026 | not cracking into the spotify api because they were apparently hacked two weeks ago and just. took it down. and are not answering any questions from the dev community. yall wtf its part of the paid service

1/17/2026 | cracking into spotify api see if we cant make the front page more cooler

1/17/2026 | have you watched atanarjuat yet ? group texting this to all of you

1/17/2026 | also ill start a movies page soon or something but frrr atanarjuat isnt a recommendation its a command. watch it before my troops reach your home and drag you to the screening

1/17/2026 | toddler age my parents taught me i could "magic money" by draping a cloth over their closed hands, and when i took the cloth away there would be a little change in their palms. they spoke continuously about how we were hurting for money (neither found a job? until i was 5) so very regularly in the evenings i would ask my dad to "magic money" with me. we'd start with the dollars in his pocket and slowly work down to the nickles, and eventually i would have about $5. it would get "harder" to magic the money, id have to dance or sing or answer riddles as he ran out. believing it was my magical effort which had apperated the coins i would either pass them back immediately #provider or hold onto the coins for a day where my food was "too expensive" and use them to trade for snacks. my dad thought it was fucked up i was under the impression our magical hack was all that kept the house fed (on days where i "couldn't" magic money ie his pockets were empty, id become absolutely despondent with shame and misery), but my mom thought it was a mark of my greed that i should ask so regularly for coin and forbade him from saying anything. many memories of dancing/singing/riddle answering on one parent's command as the other chirps me for looking stupid and desperate. my personality type my gift and my hamartia is i never ever showed impatience or frustration (which is what reeeaaally pissed my mom off) because that would scare the magic away

1/14/2026 | may you be as lovingly attended as a bearded dragon who tips on his back in the company of transgender stoners

1/14/2026 | ratatouille is such a good movie except for the weird shit around stealing food. you know who cant cook?people who dont have food

1/14/2026 | added a bunch of movie recs that cycle over the year :3 yippee

1/13/2026 | autism + multiplicity is being a witch

1/13/2026 | im feeling more normal now

1/12/2026 | "do people shun you" SOME of them do, a LOT of them seem clued in that im perfectly functional and easy to exploit when im positioned in the box where my functionality can be questioned. the crazy box (bad memory, funny voice..s..)

1/12/2026 | "why do they all hate you" im physically multiple because shaken baby sobbing crying blood emoji, i cant hide my front swaps at all and so i seem "really scary." thats all. that is what is up. typing it out does make me feel a little better because everyone acts like i ate a litter of puppies on the steps of town hall but i gotta remember i was just whiplashed 7 days old and didnt get medical care......tsktsking the pitchfork mob YALL unbelieveable for wanting me to "make it up" at every turn

1/12/2026 | true life story too much always having to tell people im simple fresh landed alien

1/12/2026 | re last post actually the largest bramble i could write is about how a lot of people actually fucking love rapists like its psychologically delightful to them in some way (many causes many reasons; hence the largess of the bramble). you dont know until youre raped?? and you tell close friends and theyre like. excited and thrilled. creepy weird and awful but ive had to cut off very dear friends who go and sleep with these men (end stage pickme disease) , male peers who trance into violence and sex reward fantasies, and in general a lot of people who relate with the aggressor. imagine someone who will do ANYTHING to get what they want! rapists are the ultimate protagonist to ..some folks

1/12/2026 | prayer circle guys i just blocked one of the biggest sex pests in my life 20 years running but im from a crazy small town so we're actually coworkers 3 times over in different cross organizational initiatives and this is going to mean justifying myself to like ten thousand people. it's my new years resolution to never let them pair me with him again >>BECAUSE THEY ALSO THINK HE'S WEIRD THEY JUST WANT IT TO BE MY JOB TO SMOOTH HIM OVER<<

1/12/2026 | unwittingly watched a cam rip of marty supreme and thought the audio quality was part of the movie. it was my favourite part of the movie

1/11/2026 | trying to gather glowstone on the normal difficulty server but i have a panic disorder and keepInventory false

1/11/2026 | towers of hanoi but every time u set down a ring the sizes change randomly

1/10/2026 | clicking my whole head on like a lego guy

1/10/2026 | you think someone would do that? write a very short blog post just to help their main page from stretching into oblivion?

1/10/2026 | also worth mentioning i think ? because its very on my mind reviewing the past couple years lol that the interest beacon gets from serial killer/rapist/assaulter types is like. instantaneous and we have learned to feel it in a crowd. shes catnip to them frrr so they tend to give themselves away but some super scary stuff has happened lol especially when shes stuck in front alone. there is nothing some men want more than to emotionally and then physically destroy her and any woman like her (JOYFUL) and they are literally cruising for opportunities day in day out..kind of upsetting lol but gives us very clear vision of peoples character and intentions i guess. its only stressful when the person isnt quite a stranger....... (keep in mind maybe 5% of this is we're a comparatively easy target; we always look petite and visibly disabled, but beacon seems like she has a spark to lose and thats what they want to harm. she's a gorgeous vase on a high shelf; they hate that everyones always giving her flowers and they think they can erase her to strengthen themselves, when we all know only tiger jizz shots can strengthen a weak man)

1/10/2026 | jack again ;fronting after 2 years of beaconbug near exclusion is so crazy . walking around town. everyone is smiling and waving . excited to see her (soooorrrryyy ;u;) and physically we are so insanely strong compared to the body she was handed (she likes to wiggle and squirm also like a week into having the keys she quit our desk job and retrained (beacon when u read this...genius reposition)). aside from the demon its easy to move lol and knee is as recovered as i think can be expected. her only other solo front time we were in kindie and we do vaguely remember most of the employees at supermarkets knowing us by name because she would walk up and say hi my name is beacon, what is your name? to literally any approachable stranger. we're a bit more sophisticated as an adult but im sifting through memories trying to get a grip lol and its just gobsmacking TO ME that her daily is really so so different from mine lol. she is a person dying 85yos and birthday 5yos all want attention from . anyways favourite memory in the stack rn is an ex destroyed a new fronter's favourite necklace and she replaced it 10x the cost with the same idea in gold..

1/9/2026 | this is jack , our body is a bit too painful to wake up bug lol anyways imagine Jack's. oddly yellow is bug's colour but i would make this website yellow and she's made it . oceanic galactic..? anyways my big thought of the day was wow we have reached the mythic milestone of each "individual" within the system being closer with out-of-head/irl friends than we are with each other. i think this lowkey happens to everyone but the memory gates and context switching make it obvious that as of writing we're more involved and mindful to the arc of life than necessarily who we are in it. that last hangout with you and the homies before everything changed but its me saoirse bug and sunny being in the same "place" thinking with the same "thoughts" something that last happened over a decade ago and none of us realized it was special at the time (well saoirse did)

1/6/2026 | big update ! :]

1/6/2026 | agh my bones agh agh my bones

1/5/2026 | getting resume together but idk ....anyways whos excited for the 2026 growing season !!! !! !! !

1/4/2026 | if i was all better i would sleep for ten thousand years. and then i will get up yawn turn over sleep for ten thousand more

1/4/2026 | there isnt really value in considering the failure case but times like today i wonder whether i am alive because this is not dangerous or i am alive because i treat the demon like it is a tiger in the room. id test it but jumping away from the train is so instinctive that its all i know. youd think id stop philosophizing with my head halfway off but in fact its only giving me more ideas. if i do die please know i was trying very hard to survive. back of neck so itchyy

1/4/2026 | my whip cream goes bad tomorrow guys what should i do

1/3/2026 | finally done my mx bumbleflower deck -(๑☆‿ ☆#)ᕗ contact me to play casual commander magic!!

12/30/2025 | front system so loose im remembering high school. my only consolation is these are fabricated memories

12/29/2025 | 0.4 second saoirse front more terrifying than the seizures

12/29/2025 | i love to feel better but ill miss blood river.

12/29/2025 | he has so far interpreted whats happening as a day out golfing, filleting our own head with fish knives, a lamp smashing behind us, and walking on brick and crunching leaves

12/29/2025 | blood flow to sunny so improved he can almost think without me holding him up thank GOD this means he's fever dreaming throughout the day thank GOD that when he imagines hitting blunt surfaces we somehow bruise

12/26/2025 | survived week long demon attack, have regained significant feeling in my legs. makes immediately noticeable how numb they actually were

12/18/2025 | the only force thats kept me off the button (that zaps you unconscious instantly) is a pile of damp river stones (they are epic)

12/18/2025 | its that study with the button that zaps you only the button available to me is a car battery attached to my cerebellum. and i am GRITTING MY TEETH against mild mild mild boredom.

12/18/2025 | currently being nigh actively hunted by a brain shredding blackout seizure and im mostly Bored (the cure is a never ending yoga class). cant do shit so was listening to music then went suddenly deaf. keeping in mind the giant lightningbolt aimed at my head what could be worse than this

12/16/2025 | cut in half all ways style

12/12/2025 | really good news

12/9/2025 | one of those days...

12/8/2025 | they had to invent a new disease for him. they had to invent head exploding disease

12/7/2025 | cursor is now fun

12/6/2025 | chilly

12/5/2025 | mouth is really slippery and sharp today. ack

12/5/2025 | qol update make it look a bit prettier and rejig nav

12/4/2025 | whos ready for a cheeky flash (〜￣▽￣)〜

12/3/2025 | link hover added/ yay

12/2/2025 | spaghetti slurping sound its done. adding chat

12/1/2025 | made the chat widget of my dreams awhile ago before i realized neocities was static lol . trying to hook up a remote server today but im like a little rat being suffocated by rainbow wires on all sides

11/30/2025 | catastrophic back of head pain and feet twitching but we persist in writing two lines of javascript

11/30/2025 | made a blinkie

11/30/2025 | think i need a blinkie

11/29/2025 | fought crazy to get out the door today against demonic entity in cervical spine but powerful as i am now the mint thin bowl is refilled. adding kt's personal playlist